I'm such a neurotic mess right now. Betrayal is a very devastating action and I feel as though I've been a bit betrayed. This mix of emotions as made me feel sort of worthless since last night. I haven't felt this terrible in months, not since I had a pretty big heart break a few months ago. I cannot get it off my mind no matter how hard I try. This person I consider to be a very good friend and that just makes it feel worse. I have so many emotions right now but I really can't release them much other than posting this. I really hate when people see me in emotional pain. This betrayal is something that happened a while ago but I only learned of it recently. It is kind of pathetic that it's affecting me this much. I just need to get over it.